reunited & it feels so good....

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baby steps back

dont feel abandoned. it's been months, i know. the thing is, when i WANT to post, i dont have the means to get to you (damn you BB) Even more , all the thoughts & feelings get so jumbled in my simple mind. i work myself up, then next thing you know POOF,the NEED to vent is over.

so much has happened. love, health, family, friends. a lot of change , a lot of adapting. hopefully we can catch up.

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the earth shook...my heart stopped

I woke up early Saturday morning , for no reason really. & as I checked the BBM status's, I see my besties......an earthquake hit Chile. I just stared at my phone. Googled the news & there it was, an earthquake stronger than what had hit Haiti had struck Chile, with tons of aftershocks. My heart, just sunk. So I txt her & wait. I wasnt too sure as to where her family is, whether they're in Concepcion or Santiago, maybe both. I watch the news, stay online. She finally responds, most family accounted for.

My mother wakes up & comes to my room, shes been crying. She was worried for cat's family. I couldnt help but cry too. I think I felt appreciative that my family loves & cares about those that I love so very much .

I head to her house & keep her company. & we just watch the news. & although what happened was catastrophic, Chile had everything under control. The U.S. was quick to offer assistance, & Chile, although appreciative,pretty much said "we'll get back to you on that". I absolutely loved it. I felt proud for Chile. Earthquakes arent some unknown event to them, they're prepared. They've had plans & funds all set.

I got into a conversation with a friend, he was "puzzled" as to why I was so concerned. That earthquakes happen, things like this happen. You can just hope for the best & move on. Life moves on. & while all that is true, & the fact that he has the innate ability to rationalize just about everything.....this was not one of those times.
When you love people, care about them, you love & care about what's important to them. You feel for them, you worry for them......it doesnt matter what it is or where. It's not about distance or who has more culture. If it's Haiti or Chile or Cincinnati.

To my gypsy, I love you.
Chile, you're in my prayers

Ki jan mwen ede?

How Can I Help.....

On January 12th Haiti was hit by what can only be described as the hand of God. An earthquake measuring 7.0 on the Richter scale shattered the islands capital, with the current death toll to estimate to be 200,000.

For all the bitching I do about my life, how I WANT the things I dont NEED. To then watch people suffer who dont have much to begin with....how dare I. How dare we.

I've donated like millions of others I'm sure. I've reached out to those I know who have families there, who look at the news & see their culture, their people, their hearts shaken.

I just feel compelled to do more, donating just doesnt feel adequate enough for the devastation.
I question my strength. If I could go there now, to help , would I. Could I.

Haiti, I'm sorry it took this, for us to see you.
-Love me

Distant boo-boo

Sana Sana
colita de rana,
si no sanas hoy
sanaras manana



missing my niece

SMACK

You would think that I would've learned to stay away. stupid girl I am. my question is how can I be the person I am, still have people in my life, w/o having having salt rubbed on a apparently still healing wound. *sigh* Sad part is, the REALLY sad part, is that why should I get emo. I'm doing amazing. Im not surrounded by no-bodies, or have an empty, unfulfilled life. I dont try to clusterfuck it with crap just to pass the time.

stop reminiscing on something that will never be the same. I'm a whole different person now & outgrown a lot of bad habits.
.....this baggage is so 2005, it doesnt match my 2010 couture